Oh the joy of patience.

Haha I love being goofy with him =] I MISS IT SO MUCH!

Well, my letters came yesterday! I guess i just get way to impatient. I'm pretty sure that these ones were looked through by the DI's or whoever looks through them cause they were taped up... and obviously came late. I'm so glad i finally got them though, i got inducted into the national honor society and i needed something from him to boost me up and not be so sad about not getting one, made my night all that much better =] And as promised there was a poem, "A Man and a Woman" =] I don't know how he is so good at those... Especially cause he doesn't have much time. How lucky am I! He knows just what to say even when he is miles away, I cant believe that I'm the girl he wants to spend the rest of his life with, I am truly the luckiest girl on this earth. He is everything I've ever wanted in someone, he is my protector, always making sure that I'm doing ok. I love our relationship, we really did it right. That's for sure. I can't wait to see him again! 55 days left! Letter #33 in processing =]

Expected...

Well, its Wednesday. The day that i actually expected a letter. And as i had said before, expecting things will lead to disappointment. Boy am i disappointed. Feels like i haven't talked to him in a year and its only been since Friday. You never really understand the depth of distance, and then add no communication. I don't even have words for how i feel at this point. I miss him so much, and i just want to hear him tell me its going to be OK. Its really starting to kick in that he is gone, i know that he is safe and everything, but i don't know what exactly he is doing and there is no way for me to know at all. All i can do is assume, and i hate assuming. I am so ridiculous that i actually am contemplating going to the mailbox again, just to make sure its not in there. Its easy for something to get lost in a 2"x 10" box, right? My letters are starting to get kinda depressing, because I'm used to telling him exactly how i feel every second my mood changes, and guess what... he is still getting that. Maybe i should try to refrain from that. Considering my state of mind is just sad=[ Well, not much to say today, just sad.

Praying for a letter soon.